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Just prayin' to a God I don't believe in.<3

Well there's some new drama today.
You wanna hear about it? Too bad, you're gonna.

It started with this girl named Megan.
She's the Devil, I swear. Hence the red.
Anyway, she's a major backstabber. And here's why.

Last week, sometime in the blur that was spring break, I walked up to the library with her and my friend Sam. Who's not that bad. While we were walking, she decided to grab my hand, and I took Sam's, JUST messing around. Then, we went home and slept and stuff, everything was still alright.

Fast-forward to today.
The first day we get back from spring break, and halfway through the day, I find out Megan spread a rumor about me and Sam. A horrible rumor. One that could've ruined everything with Anthony. (But luckily didn't)

See, her verison of what happened at the library was different. Alot different.
Apparently, I was all over Sam ever since he agreed to walk with us. And then at the library, I held his hand. Then made out with him. Still in the library.

First of all, who sucks face in a library?! I mean really, I just got in trouble for PDA, I'd like not to get in more. Second, Anthony's just about the best thing that's happened to me this year. Why would I give that up for a Sam??

So as far as most people know right now, I'm cheating on Anthony. With Sam. My ex. Because I'm that much a whore. Gee-fucking-thanks Megan.

And on top of this, I have another detention tomorrow, one that I think I'm going to walk home from. Which is going to suck balls. Seeing as I live miles from the school. But hey, detention's over at 3 and I have till around 4.30-5. Basically.

I'm kinda really pissed so I want to get some sleep.
ILOVESYOU

Amber&Kim

So,
I was suppose to go to Arkansas wiff my bestie friend in Mississippi Rachell.
But my fucking grandparents are here.
The only thing I have against them, well acctully it's only her. My grandmother.
It's eaither her way or no way.
I mean really what the fuck?
She makes my grandpa do everything for her.
And I sit by her and think.
"Bitch Please."
She can't do that.
It's mean.
But anyways back to Rachel and Arkansas,
I can't go because of them.
My freaking mom said no.
Only cause of my freaking grandmother.
 And my mom acts like an "angel" around her.
My mom cusses, bitches, all that shit.
But not around her.
And it annoys the fuck outta me.
Well now I'm going down the street to Emily's house.

Love You Guyss;
AmberAndKim.
:D

Flip flops, sandy beaches, sunny skies, and creamy ice cream for the next two weeks. (:

Unless you happen to live in Conneaut, Ohio.
In that case, you have some freezing cold lake water, a local Dairy Queen, stormy days, and winds that take away any unprotected newspapers and kites.
Isn't that lovely?

But I'm still determined to make the most of my spring break.
Maybe it'd help if my boyfriend wasn't always busy, my friends weren't suddenly all out, and the only person who really wants to make plans with me wasn't my ex. Which, you know, isn't that bad. He turned out to be pretty cool so I'm not gonna complain.

On top of that, I'm getting sick. Which sucks 'cause I just wanna sit around all day.
Hey, at least I finally got my computer back.

And when I get back to school, oh boy. Two office detentions for PDA. (For those living in caves, Public Display of Affection.) And of course I'm not gonna tell my parents about it, my mom will just put on her 'disappointed face', but my dad'll go after Anthony with a shotgun. Yeah, my dad's that kinda person. He's sorta like a redneck who's just wayy too protective of his only daughter.
But, on the bright side of that, I have him wrapped around my finger. ;)

And wow, I saw my sister last Saturday for the first time in two years. What I thought was going to be a horrible confrontion was actually pretty amazing.
See, Tabby's only my half sister, but I consider as much a sibling as my full blood brother, Dwayne.
So naturally, I don't get to see Tabby ofter, because she lived with her mother.
I KNEW I would like Tabby as soon as the words "Let me introduce you to my girlfriend.." came out of her mouth.

I don't know what it is about anyone that's not straight, but I adore 'em. Just the way I am.

Here's hoping the next week will brighten up a 'lil.

XXXX

Amber&&Kim

So.
I've been thinking.
I'm tired of people and their same old shit
I mean seriously.
Whatthefuck???
Can't they get tired of themselfs??
I'd suppose not.
But oh well.
Fuck um',
anyways I've been okay other than that.
I cannot wait till this summerrr,
I'm going to Ohio!
Whooooooohooooooooooo!
It's freaking great.
I get to see Kimmy!!!!!
Hella funnn.
But how are you?
Tell me, e-mail me or kim attt
[email protected]
Orrrr
[email protected]
Have Funnnn.
Byeeeeeee.
<3
Love You; Amber and Kim.

So school comes back from break tomorrow. Everyone's gonna be talking about enjoying the precious time with family, creating priceless memories..or bragging about their new shit. Mostly bragging. x]
I am completally horrified of going back. I mean, there's nothing wrong with school, I usually love it. But I really don't want to go back to all the drama and asian bitches.

The main spotlight in going back is this one boy. ;] He's in 10th grade, not even the same school as me, but he walks me home whenever he can. He's mega sweet! Plus hella dank. :L
The only problem is I'm not sure if he likes me or not. Plus he has a girlfriend. Oh wait, isn't that two? xD

OH, another thing I cannot wait for! Lunch time. If you read a while ago about my 'friend', well people in my group aren't exactly warm to her. It's gonna be so awkward. Either that, or everyone's gonna completally ignore her, make her move, or pretend to get along with her [kinda hypocritical much?] Oh well.

I'm a little not excited about having to see the effing happy couple. -_- But hey, I had my chance, so I can't really blame them. Besides, they're happy together, and that's what matters.

Do you believe in fate? I'm not quite sure if I do or not, but I really hope there is. >.> Otherwise I'm gonna end up hella lonely. I haven't been serious about anyone since August, I believe. I'm just..too picky. Or, as my friends like to say, fate has already picked out a perfect partner for me, and doesn't want me wasting my life on anyone else. Am I wrong, or does that just seem like a nice way to say I'm desprate? xP Thanks guys.
Well, that's it for tonight. [To nickelodean toon] Nah nuh nah nuh nah na nuh, Kim is peacin' out.
Amber&Kim

Okay well depresion, very seirous issue and I'd like to talk about it, I had been very depressed for the longest time untill I meet this girl Kim, My very best friend and I just got over it. But for the people who havn't I want to tell you there are other ways to help yourself besides cutting yourself, suicid, other things. There is this lovely site called ToWriteLoveOnHerArms. All I can Say is that this place is AMAZINGG. :D  Also if that dosn't help you can always talk to me, or kim. ^^ we're happy to help. Also if it's very bad then talk to you parents, guidance councler, anyone, Your best firend? Because I know sometimes parents don't give a damn and just think it's a "phase" bullshit. Also Anorexic, and all the other ones haveing to do with weight.(I'm not sure what they are called) Just look in the mirror you're more beautiful than you think. Oh and just because thoes skinny models are soooooo pretty dosn't mean anything. Have you ever watched America's Next Top Model? Most of them are soooo not that pretty without makeup. Trust me I've watched almost every episode of that show. So Yea talk to someone will you? Because Ya know America has the most suicidal people?You don't want to be apart of it. Just listen to me? Please? -Amber&Kim

Oh lovely parents.
No matter how nosy, rude, mean, or just plain abusive they can be, remember that they're the reason you're in this world, and no matter what, you're always connected to them. This just means that you can blame them for literally everything that goes wrong. Puppy die? Well, mom, if YOU didn't give birth to me, I wouldn't have a puppy, and HE wouldn't have died. xD

I, myself plan on being emancipated as soon as I turn 16, can drive, and get a job. I cannot wait to get away from my parents.
I mean..don't get me wrong, at times..their alright.
And I'm not gonna lie, I'm all for gay rights.
Now my mother, I believe she wants me to be lesbian. Mainly because she recently admitted to dressing my up in boys' clothes when I was little so I would end up lesbian or a tomboy.
And well, my dad is homophobia in a nutshell.
Plus, my mother takees his side, no matter what.
But the point is, I can't stand them, they can't stand me, we don't get along. We fight tons, and it stresses me to my limits.

Speaking of homophobes..
Back the fuck off. NO one likes you.
You can basically pick out the homophobes in a group. They're the ones who sit in their skirts that cover half of the vagina, and try their best to stay away from the girls with short hair, and the boys with long hair.  

Well, enough about homophobes, let's talk about asians.
I'm not racist, I swear I'm not, but I am against my ex-friend who claims she isn't asian, but honestly..she just needs a good mirror.
Well, ever since I met her, every few months, she'd get a cold sore or two. It was..not delicious looking, to say the least.

Now, I have a cold sore. I blame it on her completally.
I dunno, maybe she raped my face in the middle of the night, but it just comforts me to blame her. (:
Amber&Kim

Okay so I'm always called emo, scene whatever people think I am. But I am none of these things. Just because I like skinny jeans and rock band don't mean ANYTHING. So now I shall talk about the sterotypes of the world (The most common) First "Jocks". Ya Know the "cute" football, basketball, soccor, baseball players who always have a girl stuck to there side, Everyone eather want to be them, love them, or just plain out hate them.
The "Preps" The girls who wear Abercrombie & Fitch,Hollister,Aeropostial. They can't help but look at themselfs 24/7 and have the "Bestest Friends" Well those ladies all talk about one another behind there backs. There are also the
"Goths" They are the moody kids who always shut everyone out and stay alone most of the time. The "Emo/Scene" Kids The Emos sit with there firends cut themselfs (not all do) and say "Fuck the world, I hate my life." The Scene kids, Obbsessed with Hello Kitty, Gir, and Skeleanimals, There like inbetween Emo and Prep.
Then last but not lest theres just us normal kids who don't really care about stereotypes and do what we want.
So mabey next time people say someone is "Emo" "Prep" or A "Jock" they might wanna just shut up before they start some more drama.
-Amber&Kim

I, for one am fed up with fake friends.
You know, the ones that swear they absolutely love you, but then when your back's turned, they'll say anything they can about you.
Yeah, those ones..

Here's a real life example:
 Friend 1, lets call her Desiraye, tells Friend 2 [Kim] things about Friends 3&4 [Anthony and Lacey]. (Real names weren't used, accept for Kim.) Kim assumes Desiraye doesn't like Anthony and Lacey. That's..about it.
But, Kim has a huge crush on Anthony. Drama pursues.
Anthony and Lacey get together, Kim is slightly jealous, but as a good friend, gets the fuck over it.
Next, Deziraye goes and tells Anthony and Lacey about how mad Kim is, about how much she as a person hates Kim, and so on.
Eventually, the truth comes out and everyone basically hates Desiraye.

Well, there wasn't really a lesson there, but it's going on in my life. The ending, yeah, I made that up, that's what I hope will happen.
If you're one of those friends, cut it out. It's not cool, no one likes it. If you're innocent and a good friend..well just keep it up, I suppose.
Goodnight!
Amber&Kim

Boys, Wow do they mess with your head or what?
First its 'I love you, Wait no only as a friend. We're still just friends, but Imma flirt with you, then oh ya I love you Just so you know.'
Is it just me that happens to?
Or is it with everyone else also?
I can never get people's emotions straight they confuse me all to much.
But We're ganna have to live and learn I guess.
Oh and Boys watch out or mabey we might just play with your head like a monopoly game one day.
Make sure your ready for it.
-Amber&Kim